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Daily div.
It's been one heck of a day so this one oughta be brief... for what passes as brief on my blog, lol.
First, the Me card - I was able to be optimistic-ish in conversations with a friend or two, which ended up taking up about half my day. The little one in arms turned out to be rather literal, as the daycare returned my son to us as he developed the sniffles. And on that note...
Hoo BOY was the situation card accurate! Not in that I somehow didn't get the job - through great perseverance I was, in the end, permitted to piss in a cup - but I had NO COMFORT today. Going to the urgent care as a walk-in was stressful in a way I find hard to define. Everyone there was miserable, but in a silent and resigned way, both staff and patients alike. For one thing, they asked my COVID vaccination status on their paperwork. I gritted my teeth and figured this was, very technically, between me and a doctor but... still. I am pretty sure at this moment that unless I am spurting blood or the equivalent--or as long as this frankly evil trend in our culture of requiring drug tests for people whom drug use would not hamper in the performance of their job, continues--I will never visit an Urgent Care again. Ever.
They had some vapid TV show on, like nails on a chalkboard, which I being the only person without a smartphone/earplugs was forced to listen to (literally everyone else had their face buried in a phone), and I begged them to turn it off... which they refused, claiming that otherwise conversations might be able to be overheard in the offices. Really? Their construction budget was that fucking cheap?? Thankfully they let me sit in my car after that to continue the hour-long wait. But what if I hadn't had a car? I am stunned on a daily basis by how cruel this country is to the poor, and how utterly wretched the public sphere has become. It was so striking today, that I actually gave money to the people at the stoplight with a sign - usually I give food or nothing. But perhaps I should force myself to more regularly have food, by forcing myself to pay money (which I dislike doing) if I don't. Adopting that rule might genuinely compel me to offer up more direct charity than I have been. And it's a good time to be charitable, don't you think?
Anyway, after that, and with my kid around, I could NOT relax. It sure as hell was the opposite of "comfort"! I begged my husband to buy me comfort food, all of which I devoured, and it isn't currently doing anything good for my health as it works through my system, either. I desperately distracted myself with long online conversations while my son watched train videos on Youtube, entranced (not my peak parenting moment or anything, but hey... he could be watching Blippi instead). It wasn't until I went outside, after my husband's work was finally over, and did a ritual that I started to gain myself back a bit.
And as for the outcome card, I think in this case it meant "You suck at multitasking." I didn't get done even half the things I wanted to! :( Fortunately this shouldn't overly affect the event I'm hosting tomorrow - so long as I don't come down with my kid's cold, that is. We'll just SEE about that...
And I think we've come to the divination, so we will see.
Me: 3 of Spades - Moving beyond Sorrow, Understanding one's own Feelings - the other source suggests an unpleasant medical connection with this card
Situation: King of Diamonds - Generosity, Happiness found in Nature or Spirituality
Outcome: 4 of Clubs REVERSED - NOT solid foundations, celebration, stability - "this card is still promising great happiness - some ironic little twist diminishes a potentially joyful resolution."
LOL, this one seems pretty clear...I'll have a full-blown cold tomorrow, because of course. I will disclose to all attendees and wear a mask if they request, and keep us all outside and spaced far apart in any case. We will bond over nature and spirituality - seems right in line :) And though there will be a bittersweet tinge to it, the outcome overall will be happy. I'll take it! This feels like a very realistic take, lol. And on that note... time to get enough sleep to prepare for tomorrow!
First, the Me card - I was able to be optimistic-ish in conversations with a friend or two, which ended up taking up about half my day. The little one in arms turned out to be rather literal, as the daycare returned my son to us as he developed the sniffles. And on that note...
Hoo BOY was the situation card accurate! Not in that I somehow didn't get the job - through great perseverance I was, in the end, permitted to piss in a cup - but I had NO COMFORT today. Going to the urgent care as a walk-in was stressful in a way I find hard to define. Everyone there was miserable, but in a silent and resigned way, both staff and patients alike. For one thing, they asked my COVID vaccination status on their paperwork. I gritted my teeth and figured this was, very technically, between me and a doctor but... still. I am pretty sure at this moment that unless I am spurting blood or the equivalent--or as long as this frankly evil trend in our culture of requiring drug tests for people whom drug use would not hamper in the performance of their job, continues--I will never visit an Urgent Care again. Ever.
They had some vapid TV show on, like nails on a chalkboard, which I being the only person without a smartphone/earplugs was forced to listen to (literally everyone else had their face buried in a phone), and I begged them to turn it off... which they refused, claiming that otherwise conversations might be able to be overheard in the offices. Really? Their construction budget was that fucking cheap?? Thankfully they let me sit in my car after that to continue the hour-long wait. But what if I hadn't had a car? I am stunned on a daily basis by how cruel this country is to the poor, and how utterly wretched the public sphere has become. It was so striking today, that I actually gave money to the people at the stoplight with a sign - usually I give food or nothing. But perhaps I should force myself to more regularly have food, by forcing myself to pay money (which I dislike doing) if I don't. Adopting that rule might genuinely compel me to offer up more direct charity than I have been. And it's a good time to be charitable, don't you think?
Anyway, after that, and with my kid around, I could NOT relax. It sure as hell was the opposite of "comfort"! I begged my husband to buy me comfort food, all of which I devoured, and it isn't currently doing anything good for my health as it works through my system, either. I desperately distracted myself with long online conversations while my son watched train videos on Youtube, entranced (not my peak parenting moment or anything, but hey... he could be watching Blippi instead). It wasn't until I went outside, after my husband's work was finally over, and did a ritual that I started to gain myself back a bit.
And as for the outcome card, I think in this case it meant "You suck at multitasking." I didn't get done even half the things I wanted to! :( Fortunately this shouldn't overly affect the event I'm hosting tomorrow - so long as I don't come down with my kid's cold, that is. We'll just SEE about that...
And I think we've come to the divination, so we will see.
Me: 3 of Spades - Moving beyond Sorrow, Understanding one's own Feelings - the other source suggests an unpleasant medical connection with this card
Situation: King of Diamonds - Generosity, Happiness found in Nature or Spirituality
Outcome: 4 of Clubs REVERSED - NOT solid foundations, celebration, stability - "this card is still promising great happiness - some ironic little twist diminishes a potentially joyful resolution."
LOL, this one seems pretty clear...I'll have a full-blown cold tomorrow, because of course. I will disclose to all attendees and wear a mask if they request, and keep us all outside and spaced far apart in any case. We will bond over nature and spirituality - seems right in line :) And though there will be a bittersweet tinge to it, the outcome overall will be happy. I'll take it! This feels like a very realistic take, lol. And on that note... time to get enough sleep to prepare for tomorrow!