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Daily div.
I was so tired two nights ago that I didn't even brush my teeth before collapsing into bed - and last night, to come back downstairs after a gnarly toddler bedtime and try to type on my mother-in-law's couch - but let's review and get back on track for tomorrow!
Me card: Yeah, I lacked focus - we packed a bunch of stuff but forgot stuff. I was nervous all day waiting for a call. NO CALL CAME. Imma live my life, the end.
Situation card: I don't think too much happened regarding my fertility - if I'm pregnant, I'll be surprised - but I did feel in my gut a connection with going to see my mother-in-law (we are staying at her house this weekend). She is the Ultimate Mother of the family, mothering all her stepchildren (she's up to 4 of those) and many of her kids' friends, too. She's the bedrock of family help for our hoped-for second child. So, there's a bit of a connection there.
Outcome card: Nature was pretty spectacular both on our drive up, and on the boat we got to ride on that my father-in-law owns. I feel like I've barely kept up with my spiritual practices (I did manage the ritual, thankfully) but the land is beautiful, and a lot of people are (masklessly) enjoying it up here, which comforts me.
Ok let's do a divination before my computer dies.
Me: 5 of Hearts - Learning from Past Mistakes, Moving Forward
Situation: 5 of Clubs (The Devil) - Temptation, Attachment, Control
Outcome: 8 of Diamonds - Comfort Achieved through Work and Persistence
Hmm! Yes, the 5 of Hearts is already me - I have put an incredible amount of work this weekend into not spending extra money on anything (cooking, etc). I feel powerfully the sense of "moving forward" into a different life, one which I believe is better. It's really obvious when we go to a place where I used to escape to eat expensive restaurant food twice a day on every visit... the situation card, ouch! I wonder if my mother-in-law will corner me today and try to convince us to spend our savings on buying a house out in the boonies? They apparently worked my husband over while I was asleep two nights ago. I love these people, but their financial suggestions make me want to tear my hair out. I mean, nothing's off the table in these crazy times, but going in on a "100 acres" somewhere around Anacortes with their profligate friends sounds like a TERRIBLE idea. We'll see. I'm relieved to see the Outcome card... I think I will feel proud of myself and how much I've changed by the time we get home tonight. Well, we'll just have to live through the rest of this "vacation" and see!
Me card: Yeah, I lacked focus - we packed a bunch of stuff but forgot stuff. I was nervous all day waiting for a call. NO CALL CAME. Imma live my life, the end.
Situation card: I don't think too much happened regarding my fertility - if I'm pregnant, I'll be surprised - but I did feel in my gut a connection with going to see my mother-in-law (we are staying at her house this weekend). She is the Ultimate Mother of the family, mothering all her stepchildren (she's up to 4 of those) and many of her kids' friends, too. She's the bedrock of family help for our hoped-for second child. So, there's a bit of a connection there.
Outcome card: Nature was pretty spectacular both on our drive up, and on the boat we got to ride on that my father-in-law owns. I feel like I've barely kept up with my spiritual practices (I did manage the ritual, thankfully) but the land is beautiful, and a lot of people are (masklessly) enjoying it up here, which comforts me.
Ok let's do a divination before my computer dies.
Me: 5 of Hearts - Learning from Past Mistakes, Moving Forward
Situation: 5 of Clubs (The Devil) - Temptation, Attachment, Control
Outcome: 8 of Diamonds - Comfort Achieved through Work and Persistence
Hmm! Yes, the 5 of Hearts is already me - I have put an incredible amount of work this weekend into not spending extra money on anything (cooking, etc). I feel powerfully the sense of "moving forward" into a different life, one which I believe is better. It's really obvious when we go to a place where I used to escape to eat expensive restaurant food twice a day on every visit... the situation card, ouch! I wonder if my mother-in-law will corner me today and try to convince us to spend our savings on buying a house out in the boonies? They apparently worked my husband over while I was asleep two nights ago. I love these people, but their financial suggestions make me want to tear my hair out. I mean, nothing's off the table in these crazy times, but going in on a "100 acres" somewhere around Anacortes with their profligate friends sounds like a TERRIBLE idea. We'll see. I'm relieved to see the Outcome card... I think I will feel proud of myself and how much I've changed by the time we get home tonight. Well, we'll just have to live through the rest of this "vacation" and see!