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22 July 2021 19:45 Overall a much quieter day, at least internally... thank god.
I felt much more optimistic, lighter and more able to go out and do things overall today. That would be the Me card, of course. I may even have done too many things!
The reversed Tower card, too, seems uncannily accurate... as I ran into a farcical buzzsaw trying to pee into a cup today. I dropped in late in the day to see if I could just get it done and found out that I needed an appointment on the Internet, and then when I went home to make one, discovered that there are no appointments available until after the period that HR has granted me.
I actually find this, you know, really funny?? I've descended into some version of petty bureaucratic hell... lol! I'm pretty confident that between the HR representative and her powers, and calling the office as soon as they open tomorrow to explain the situation, we can figure this out. It would be the height of irony if THIS, after EVERYTHING else, was the reason I didn't get the job! HA HA HA! OMG it would actually be so hilarious, it would almost be worth it. ALMOST.
Today, for the first time, I considered writing a black comedy piece about this era we're currently living through, and if I ever do, this stupid piss-in-a-cup episode will be included.
And then the Outcome card - Mike came to me to admit he had been feeling stressed more than usual lately, and that turned into a Very Serious Conversation where I laid out in a more organized fashion my Schrödinger's vaccine policy, and how I was going to roll it out, specifically. Specifically... how I was going to roll it out to his mother.
As the card suggested, it was not really much of a discussion. I explained calmly and with great detail what my plan was, and he nodded along. The closest to resistance was him confiding that he was frightened about how she was going to respond. (He has never once before had to counter his mother at any point over his 38 years. As I remarked after we were done, our mid-life crises continue apace!) I told him that he would of course read any email before I sent it, that my goal would not be to pick a fight but to remove the source of any fight, and finally at one point, that I had done everything I could not to interrupt their relationship any further than it had been, and that the rest of the matter, they'd have to sort out between them. So, uh... not a discussion. I really felt the strain, of trying both to respect his feelings, but also to respect my own shining line in the sand. I think we got there. I don't want to be up too much later - I'd really like us to spend time together as a couple tonight.
So let's divinate!
Me: Queen of Clubs - creative, optimistic, holding a little one
Situation: 8 of Diamonds REVERSED - "someone slacking off or accepting that he/she will never achieve some goal"
Outcome: 2 of Diamonds (The High Priestess) REVERSED - enigmas upon enigmas upon enigmas, or, some previously hidden feature will influence the outcome
A mixed reading... no time to speculate tonight. To bed!
I felt much more optimistic, lighter and more able to go out and do things overall today. That would be the Me card, of course. I may even have done too many things!
The reversed Tower card, too, seems uncannily accurate... as I ran into a farcical buzzsaw trying to pee into a cup today. I dropped in late in the day to see if I could just get it done and found out that I needed an appointment on the Internet, and then when I went home to make one, discovered that there are no appointments available until after the period that HR has granted me.
I actually find this, you know, really funny?? I've descended into some version of petty bureaucratic hell... lol! I'm pretty confident that between the HR representative and her powers, and calling the office as soon as they open tomorrow to explain the situation, we can figure this out. It would be the height of irony if THIS, after EVERYTHING else, was the reason I didn't get the job! HA HA HA! OMG it would actually be so hilarious, it would almost be worth it. ALMOST.
Today, for the first time, I considered writing a black comedy piece about this era we're currently living through, and if I ever do, this stupid piss-in-a-cup episode will be included.
And then the Outcome card - Mike came to me to admit he had been feeling stressed more than usual lately, and that turned into a Very Serious Conversation where I laid out in a more organized fashion my Schrödinger's vaccine policy, and how I was going to roll it out, specifically. Specifically... how I was going to roll it out to his mother.
As the card suggested, it was not really much of a discussion. I explained calmly and with great detail what my plan was, and he nodded along. The closest to resistance was him confiding that he was frightened about how she was going to respond. (He has never once before had to counter his mother at any point over his 38 years. As I remarked after we were done, our mid-life crises continue apace!) I told him that he would of course read any email before I sent it, that my goal would not be to pick a fight but to remove the source of any fight, and finally at one point, that I had done everything I could not to interrupt their relationship any further than it had been, and that the rest of the matter, they'd have to sort out between them. So, uh... not a discussion. I really felt the strain, of trying both to respect his feelings, but also to respect my own shining line in the sand. I think we got there. I don't want to be up too much later - I'd really like us to spend time together as a couple tonight.
So let's divinate!
Me: Queen of Clubs - creative, optimistic, holding a little one
Situation: 8 of Diamonds REVERSED - "someone slacking off or accepting that he/she will never achieve some goal"
Outcome: 2 of Diamonds (The High Priestess) REVERSED - enigmas upon enigmas upon enigmas, or, some previously hidden feature will influence the outcome
A mixed reading... no time to speculate tonight. To bed!