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Divination.
29 May 2021 10:28Well, all I have to say is... LOL! Nothing worked out the way I assumed it would!
I think I got the Me card right - I'd been spending way, WAY more brain cells over figuring out how to navigate vaccine stuff with this group that was necessary, in retrospect. And... it didn't matter at all. Because I showed up (after being very lost for a while), said hi, told them I had a cold but the mask was on so it's OK right? And was told to leave.
For the record, I do think I was in the wrong - I should have read the gathering guidelines or whatever (somewhere, I have no idea where they are posted), and honestly sleeping at home would have been better for my health. But... I also realized something else. That I just cannot - CANNOT - spend another second of my life in the presence of people who are this afraid. That they would reject fellowship in a situation where the vaccine has been available for over 6 weeks, so almost everyone has received 2 shots, in an outdoor setting, where the entire group is wearing masks, where the person disclosed and offered to stand farther away, and... yet. No exceptions for someone who has paid for their service (co-working space) for 7 straight months without using it, just out of hope of keeping up some sort of contact at events like these.
I'll be cancelling my service today by email, and saving $240 bucks a month in lean times.
On the other hand, "success in business" - the outcome is that we have more money. LOL! Is this what it was telling me??
There is a bit of a connection to the Fascination/Scholarship - I spent a lot of time very lost looking for the meet-up place and then the Audubon, and now know a ton more about the roads of the region, and a few cool places to come back to later :)
After THAT ridiculous start to the practice... let's try again, shall we?
Me: 3 of Hearts, a Celebration
Situation: 2 of Hearts, Temperance/Balance/Moderation
Outcome: Ace of Hearts, Spiritual/Creative/Emotional flow
Interesting... very heart-heavy... obviously I have yet to thoroughly shuffle my deck despite much effort.
The Me = Celebration card is confusing. But, I am really quite happy to cancel my co-working space, and I am happy to have a day in which I can just lie back and relax and recover from this cold. I'm sad to not see relatives this weekend but really... staying home is going to be more pleasant in every way but social.
I think the cards are telling me to TAKE IT EASY as I recover today. I will do just that.
I wonder if I'm going to recover quickly and get to write tonight? That would be a delightful outcome, for sure :)
We'll see!
I think I got the Me card right - I'd been spending way, WAY more brain cells over figuring out how to navigate vaccine stuff with this group that was necessary, in retrospect. And... it didn't matter at all. Because I showed up (after being very lost for a while), said hi, told them I had a cold but the mask was on so it's OK right? And was told to leave.
For the record, I do think I was in the wrong - I should have read the gathering guidelines or whatever (somewhere, I have no idea where they are posted), and honestly sleeping at home would have been better for my health. But... I also realized something else. That I just cannot - CANNOT - spend another second of my life in the presence of people who are this afraid. That they would reject fellowship in a situation where the vaccine has been available for over 6 weeks, so almost everyone has received 2 shots, in an outdoor setting, where the entire group is wearing masks, where the person disclosed and offered to stand farther away, and... yet. No exceptions for someone who has paid for their service (co-working space) for 7 straight months without using it, just out of hope of keeping up some sort of contact at events like these.
I'll be cancelling my service today by email, and saving $240 bucks a month in lean times.
On the other hand, "success in business" - the outcome is that we have more money. LOL! Is this what it was telling me??
There is a bit of a connection to the Fascination/Scholarship - I spent a lot of time very lost looking for the meet-up place and then the Audubon, and now know a ton more about the roads of the region, and a few cool places to come back to later :)
After THAT ridiculous start to the practice... let's try again, shall we?
Me: 3 of Hearts, a Celebration
Situation: 2 of Hearts, Temperance/Balance/Moderation
Outcome: Ace of Hearts, Spiritual/Creative/Emotional flow
Interesting... very heart-heavy... obviously I have yet to thoroughly shuffle my deck despite much effort.
The Me = Celebration card is confusing. But, I am really quite happy to cancel my co-working space, and I am happy to have a day in which I can just lie back and relax and recover from this cold. I'm sad to not see relatives this weekend but really... staying home is going to be more pleasant in every way but social.
I think the cards are telling me to TAKE IT EASY as I recover today. I will do just that.
I wonder if I'm going to recover quickly and get to write tonight? That would be a delightful outcome, for sure :)
We'll see!