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10 June 2021 21:34Whooooo I am out of it tonight. Let's review the day.
The Fool - was I ever today... was I ever. Bang-on.
The Lovers - Well, I felt union with all my plans - I got them done. I wish I'd been able to relax more in the location I visited, but at least I made it there. I'm going to attribute Oregon City's parking problems to Oregon City, lol! But thinking about it, Oregon City was legitimately beautiful. So... this one is another hit.
8 of Diamonds - It was definitely a homey day by the end of it, I did indeed cook a big meal, and I think it would have been quite comfortable... except my mother called, and dealing with that woman is always exhausting. I feel kind of like she horned in on my comfortable evening :/ And she has enough magical energy, frankly, that that might have been exactly what happened. (I get any abilities I may possibly have from her.) That bitch! A pox on her!!
I go back and forth about my mother. On the one hand, she's worked hard enough (at babysitting) over the last two years to earn forgiveness for ditching her promise to watch my child at the last minute three years ago. And my child loves her. On the other hand... interacting with her is generally miserable. And I'm regularly embarrassed at her antics. I have such an intense feeling of "dealing with someone who never mentally aged past 15" every time we talk... because... that's probably the truth, given her severe ADD.
Will I allow her to participate in Baby #2 when it comes along? We'll see. She desperately wants to, for what that's worth (it wasn't worth a hill of beans the last time around). I've gone back and forth between planning to ask her not to contact me until the child is 6 months old, at pain of permanent excommunication, and thinking that I can grit my teeth and handle her so long as she keeps babysitting regularly. But like 15-year-olds everywhere, babysitting is really all she's good for. The rest of the time she needs to be kept at arm's length. And will I have the strength to navigate that on a daily basis, while trying to keep an infant alive?
It's a question I'll be thinking about regularly over the rest of this year.
Okay, enough complaining about my mother (how typical!). Let's check out tomorrow.
Me: Ace of Spades - REVERSED. No focus, no clarity.
Situation: 3 of Clubs - REVERSED. Efforts not rewarded, no success in business.
Outcome: 2 of Clubs - A Passionate Conversation or Debate.
Oof... but I can't say it doesn't ring true. NO focus or clarity tomorrow - I'll still be deep in period land, so that makes sense. My efforts will not be rewarded (that's not a surprise either, for similar reasons). And... I guess I'll be having a chat with someone. Hopefully a fun chat? Uh, we'll see.
The Fool - was I ever today... was I ever. Bang-on.
The Lovers - Well, I felt union with all my plans - I got them done. I wish I'd been able to relax more in the location I visited, but at least I made it there. I'm going to attribute Oregon City's parking problems to Oregon City, lol! But thinking about it, Oregon City was legitimately beautiful. So... this one is another hit.
8 of Diamonds - It was definitely a homey day by the end of it, I did indeed cook a big meal, and I think it would have been quite comfortable... except my mother called, and dealing with that woman is always exhausting. I feel kind of like she horned in on my comfortable evening :/ And she has enough magical energy, frankly, that that might have been exactly what happened. (I get any abilities I may possibly have from her.) That bitch! A pox on her!!
I go back and forth about my mother. On the one hand, she's worked hard enough (at babysitting) over the last two years to earn forgiveness for ditching her promise to watch my child at the last minute three years ago. And my child loves her. On the other hand... interacting with her is generally miserable. And I'm regularly embarrassed at her antics. I have such an intense feeling of "dealing with someone who never mentally aged past 15" every time we talk... because... that's probably the truth, given her severe ADD.
Will I allow her to participate in Baby #2 when it comes along? We'll see. She desperately wants to, for what that's worth (it wasn't worth a hill of beans the last time around). I've gone back and forth between planning to ask her not to contact me until the child is 6 months old, at pain of permanent excommunication, and thinking that I can grit my teeth and handle her so long as she keeps babysitting regularly. But like 15-year-olds everywhere, babysitting is really all she's good for. The rest of the time she needs to be kept at arm's length. And will I have the strength to navigate that on a daily basis, while trying to keep an infant alive?
It's a question I'll be thinking about regularly over the rest of this year.
Okay, enough complaining about my mother (how typical!). Let's check out tomorrow.
Me: Ace of Spades - REVERSED. No focus, no clarity.
Situation: 3 of Clubs - REVERSED. Efforts not rewarded, no success in business.
Outcome: 2 of Clubs - A Passionate Conversation or Debate.
Oof... but I can't say it doesn't ring true. NO focus or clarity tomorrow - I'll still be deep in period land, so that makes sense. My efforts will not be rewarded (that's not a surprise either, for similar reasons). And... I guess I'll be having a chat with someone. Hopefully a fun chat? Uh, we'll see.