Daily div.

 Doing this from a hotel on the coast, so let's be quick!

The Moon - yes, I connected again with my intuitive self, my animal self. I've had a few tremors of worry, but nothing like the crushing numbness and sadness of the past week. This is the right path... and I will follow it, no matter what may come. 

The Wheel of Fortune - realized that it was actually reversed. So - nothing much of import was started on (this damn hotel cost us a ton of cash). For all that, we've had a wonderful time!!

Jack of Diamonds - I learned a surprising amount about Seaside - this is the working class place to come to relax on the beach. And... there was REAL diversity on that beach!! Unlike Cannon Beach, cough cough, retreat of the PMC... not that I hate Cannon Beach mind you, but I feel like I learned something about the two places. 

And now... today's divination. 

Me: 9 of Spades REVERSED - NOT being kept awake, ABLE to make sense of events

Situation: 10 of Diamonds - A choice of security over risk, enjoyment of wealth (also a strong family card)

Outcome: Jack of Spades - Caution, Potential

This seems... accurate so far! I definitely am satisfied with my choice, though occasional worries trouble me, I am not being woken in the night by them any more. We're at a fancy-ass beach resort today for a few more hours, so I guess we're enjoying wealth as a family. And this evening I will start making plans for the next phase... caution/potential could hardly describe it better. So it goes!

Daily div.

 A quick one today, so that I can get to sleep - It's like my body remembered belatedly that I am on Day 2 of my period, lol! ^^;

I did not stay awake with worries, at any point today - I had a few, and I dealt with them each in turn.

This day was very, very much about family - Mike and I had a serious chat about what I could do to show him that I was committed to our family and our marriage, even after turning down this job. He told me that he wants me to actively move in a career direction - not just float until I am forced to take another miserable job. And y'know... he's right. I don't want to get caught by the leg by Amazon (or similar) again! So I actually applied for that part-time job in the school system. Perhaps I could transition, into being a teacher...? It's a beautiful dream I've had for a long time, made impossible by the $35,000 price tag for a master's degree (fuck that, fuck everything about that). It will have to come from starting at the bottom, though, and working my way up. Perhaps... perhaps it's possible. Let's see :)

The Jack of Spades is me all over today - full of caution, striding forward into an uncertain future where I need to keep my cards close to my chest. But also - potential. Potential for things to be better tomorrow, for myself and our family to be happier. I pray it can come true. And I will work for it - and work hard. 

Divination time...

Me: 6 of Hearts (The Lovers) - Love, Beauty, Union

Situation: 7 of Hearts REVERSED - "a clear choice and a firm decision" 

Outcome: 8 of Spades (Justice) REVERSED - "an unjust, unfair decision - do not push forward right now"

Hmmm. That last card sure does make me nervous. But at least the first two are in line with how I am feeling lately. Well... let's see what tomorrow has in store!