Daily div.
22 June 2021 20:39![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sh1njuk1Today was a really... relaxed day, all in all. Tomorrow probably won't be. But we'll get there...
I am really interested in what The Emperor means to me, as I've drawn this card several times now. According to my tarot book, it is related to being a strong and effective male in charge. Uh... does that make me "Daddy"? ;) But I find myself focusing in on the goat head (mystery, mysticism) and the sheathed sword. I regularly get what I would call authoritative impulses, which fortunately I can channel into giving a lecture to the tomatoes nowadays, which is where they belong. While I was ostensibly out there getting ready to do the SOP, I took 20 minutes to lecture on local native American history to an imaginary classroom instead. I've always wished that I could be a teacher of... well, literally anything. And I'd be the first to admit that my intellect leans masculine. (Possibly because my soul has a strong memory of my previous incarnation.) To have wisdom, which I sometimes feel I do, should be enough, but for my ego it isn't quite enough. I work hard to temper the frankly counter-productive impulse to tell other people that they're wrong, which fortunately I'm actually wise enough to know - intellectually - is a bad and counterproductive thing to do. But, it's a struggle sometimes! LOL. I understand that there's a process I yet need to go through, though - that I need to be stronger, in a variety of interpretations. I'm not yet qualified. I think I'm working on that, though. I hope so.
I bring it up because it's the closest thing I've been able to associate with this card a couple times in a row now. It'll be interesting to see if that association continues.
I've suddenly realized that the Queen of Diamonds was probably referencing - yesterday too! - the damn book report I just completed. It was a very in-depth review of a book that focused on every possible aspect of the river that is central to the wide valley that I live in. I understand SO much more about the geography of my own home now! That's a dead-ringer for Mastery, not control of Nature :)
And... I did indeed send out those emails! :) Charity and harmony and brunch offered! And prepared as well as I could for the next three days which I will be spending with my son. And on that note...
Me: 2 of Hearts (Temperance) - Balance, Moderation
Situation: King of Clubs (The Magician) - Skill, Transformation
Outcome: 9 of Diamonds (The Hermit) - Sacrifice without Regret, Self-Care
All three major arcana, and very different from the cards I've been drawing... here comes a different type of day! ^^;
I also see how it's gonna go, sigh. I'll be very patient and we'll have a pretty good day (skill will be at hand to make things fun for Grayson), but by the end of it I'll be wiped. Uh oh, I have two more days after this... but we'll figure that out then!
I am really interested in what The Emperor means to me, as I've drawn this card several times now. According to my tarot book, it is related to being a strong and effective male in charge. Uh... does that make me "Daddy"? ;) But I find myself focusing in on the goat head (mystery, mysticism) and the sheathed sword. I regularly get what I would call authoritative impulses, which fortunately I can channel into giving a lecture to the tomatoes nowadays, which is where they belong. While I was ostensibly out there getting ready to do the SOP, I took 20 minutes to lecture on local native American history to an imaginary classroom instead. I've always wished that I could be a teacher of... well, literally anything. And I'd be the first to admit that my intellect leans masculine. (Possibly because my soul has a strong memory of my previous incarnation.) To have wisdom, which I sometimes feel I do, should be enough, but for my ego it isn't quite enough. I work hard to temper the frankly counter-productive impulse to tell other people that they're wrong, which fortunately I'm actually wise enough to know - intellectually - is a bad and counterproductive thing to do. But, it's a struggle sometimes! LOL. I understand that there's a process I yet need to go through, though - that I need to be stronger, in a variety of interpretations. I'm not yet qualified. I think I'm working on that, though. I hope so.
I bring it up because it's the closest thing I've been able to associate with this card a couple times in a row now. It'll be interesting to see if that association continues.
I've suddenly realized that the Queen of Diamonds was probably referencing - yesterday too! - the damn book report I just completed. It was a very in-depth review of a book that focused on every possible aspect of the river that is central to the wide valley that I live in. I understand SO much more about the geography of my own home now! That's a dead-ringer for Mastery, not control of Nature :)
And... I did indeed send out those emails! :) Charity and harmony and brunch offered! And prepared as well as I could for the next three days which I will be spending with my son. And on that note...
Me: 2 of Hearts (Temperance) - Balance, Moderation
Situation: King of Clubs (The Magician) - Skill, Transformation
Outcome: 9 of Diamonds (The Hermit) - Sacrifice without Regret, Self-Care
All three major arcana, and very different from the cards I've been drawing... here comes a different type of day! ^^;
I also see how it's gonna go, sigh. I'll be very patient and we'll have a pretty good day (skill will be at hand to make things fun for Grayson), but by the end of it I'll be wiped. Uh oh, I have two more days after this... but we'll figure that out then!