Daily div.
8 August 2021 18:31![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sh1njuk1 Me: The "determination" card did apply to me today - I was determined to move my desk from the dining room to the bedroom, come hell or high water, in order to get ready for my new job starting tomorrow, and even after I finally peed on a stick--mostly to see if I couldn't mentally prompt my period already--and found out I AM pregnant... I laughed, and went right back to sorting papers! LOL!
Last time I was pregnant, it felt like being grabbed by the throat from the inside - but this time around, though there were a lot of symptoms thinking back (not least that my energy in doing the SOP had waned dramatically... sigh, I'm going to miss my daily SOP...) it's been much less jarring so far. So - given everything else that's been going on - I actually missed it! If I was a person with a less regular period, I wonder how long I would have gone before knowing?
Situation: Boy do I feel like the Fool today... but the specific meaning in this case is probably "opportunity". The child whose voice I heard all the way back in 2018 is finally getting the opportunity to live. (Specifically, the child who screamed from the beyond "I WANT TO LIVE!!!" the moment I got doubts about whether having another child was the right choice - THAT child is on their way. And calculating back, they grabbed their chance pretty much THE DAY my husband and I decided to stop using birth control...! This kid wants to be here, I can say that much. I don't know what all they'll have to face in this life but... they want to be here.) It's early days yet, but there's a good chance this one's going the distance.
Also, now I feel like a derp about all the Empress cards... here I am going, "I keep getting the Empress card but I'm not pregnant... what is the alternative interpretation of the Empress card?!" Meanwhile the Empress card goes: ":)" I looked back at this journal - I got the Empress card roughly when the embryo would have implanted, and then several times after the timeframe for my period came and went. So it goes!!
Outcome: Two interpretations for this one: first, my husband is overjoyed, and the King of Hearts could be him (he is romantic and bearded). Second, this could be a tell that this child will be a boy. (It is an image of a male, surrounded by water...) If so - that would work just fine for me! But I won't know for some time, as I'm going to do a lot less testing this pregnancy. Hopefully I'll be doing a lot less of everything hospital-related during this pregnancy, knock on wood.
Next up will be finding an obstetrician... as I would prefer having access to a hospital for a potential C-section, just in case... not really looking forward to that, sigh. For a lot of reasons, I'm going to need one with a sense of nuance, which was rare even in the "good times".
Anyway, I'd like a little support for tomorrow, first day at a brand new job (what a summer!!), so let's divinate.
Me: 6 of Diamonds - community-minded, harmony, so forth
Situation: 2 of Diamonds (The High Priestess) REVERSED - discovering things that are hidden, but no final answers
Outcome: Joker (The Fool) - an opportunity
Clear enough! I will be aiming to make a new community of some sort. I will find out the situation at the job, but of course not everything will be revealed on Day 1. And... this is an opportunity. Opportunities galore nowadays. Thanks cards! I'm going back to bed now!
Last time I was pregnant, it felt like being grabbed by the throat from the inside - but this time around, though there were a lot of symptoms thinking back (not least that my energy in doing the SOP had waned dramatically... sigh, I'm going to miss my daily SOP...) it's been much less jarring so far. So - given everything else that's been going on - I actually missed it! If I was a person with a less regular period, I wonder how long I would have gone before knowing?
Situation: Boy do I feel like the Fool today... but the specific meaning in this case is probably "opportunity". The child whose voice I heard all the way back in 2018 is finally getting the opportunity to live. (Specifically, the child who screamed from the beyond "I WANT TO LIVE!!!" the moment I got doubts about whether having another child was the right choice - THAT child is on their way. And calculating back, they grabbed their chance pretty much THE DAY my husband and I decided to stop using birth control...! This kid wants to be here, I can say that much. I don't know what all they'll have to face in this life but... they want to be here.) It's early days yet, but there's a good chance this one's going the distance.
Also, now I feel like a derp about all the Empress cards... here I am going, "I keep getting the Empress card but I'm not pregnant... what is the alternative interpretation of the Empress card?!" Meanwhile the Empress card goes: ":)" I looked back at this journal - I got the Empress card roughly when the embryo would have implanted, and then several times after the timeframe for my period came and went. So it goes!!
Outcome: Two interpretations for this one: first, my husband is overjoyed, and the King of Hearts could be him (he is romantic and bearded). Second, this could be a tell that this child will be a boy. (It is an image of a male, surrounded by water...) If so - that would work just fine for me! But I won't know for some time, as I'm going to do a lot less testing this pregnancy. Hopefully I'll be doing a lot less of everything hospital-related during this pregnancy, knock on wood.
Next up will be finding an obstetrician... as I would prefer having access to a hospital for a potential C-section, just in case... not really looking forward to that, sigh. For a lot of reasons, I'm going to need one with a sense of nuance, which was rare even in the "good times".
Anyway, I'd like a little support for tomorrow, first day at a brand new job (what a summer!!), so let's divinate.
Me: 6 of Diamonds - community-minded, harmony, so forth
Situation: 2 of Diamonds (The High Priestess) REVERSED - discovering things that are hidden, but no final answers
Outcome: Joker (The Fool) - an opportunity
Clear enough! I will be aiming to make a new community of some sort. I will find out the situation at the job, but of course not everything will be revealed on Day 1. And... this is an opportunity. Opportunities galore nowadays. Thanks cards! I'm going back to bed now!