Daily div.
20 August 2021 21:51![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sh1njuk1 Want to get more sleep tonight... let's review quickly.
Me: Yes, I became more comfortable through hard work - I put in the time and learned a bunch at work today, and regained kudos from the manager to boot.
Situation: Yep, I was creative for sure - I managed to do a whole day of work AND finish up getting our lease paperwork arranged and signed. Go meeeee.
Outcome: I think I got the Queen of Spades again as a notification that I didn't quite get it right yesterday. Too tired to go into it, but what I'm learning right now is the hard limit of multi-generational family living. I had quite a gauzy view of it in 2019. Now I've got a good hard dose of its reality. If I ever do this again in the future... I will need to approach it in an entirely different way, with zero sentimentality whatsoever. That feels like the appropriate karmic lesson to take away.
Let's divinate...
Me: Ace of Clubs (Strength) REVERSED - not very strong, tough love, sticking up for one's rights
Situation: 10 of Diamonds REVERSED - instability in a family caused by taking risks
Outcome: 2 of Hearts (Temperance) REVERSED - rushed for time
Yeah... I don't even know if I need to write out the narrative. Me feeling weak after this long, terrible week. Our family up until now officially breaking apart, with us younger ones forced to take a huge financial risk. And feeling wrung out and rushed with all the things we need to do... ah well. Could it ever be otherwise? To bed, to bed.
Me: Yes, I became more comfortable through hard work - I put in the time and learned a bunch at work today, and regained kudos from the manager to boot.
Situation: Yep, I was creative for sure - I managed to do a whole day of work AND finish up getting our lease paperwork arranged and signed. Go meeeee.
Outcome: I think I got the Queen of Spades again as a notification that I didn't quite get it right yesterday. Too tired to go into it, but what I'm learning right now is the hard limit of multi-generational family living. I had quite a gauzy view of it in 2019. Now I've got a good hard dose of its reality. If I ever do this again in the future... I will need to approach it in an entirely different way, with zero sentimentality whatsoever. That feels like the appropriate karmic lesson to take away.
Let's divinate...
Me: Ace of Clubs (Strength) REVERSED - not very strong, tough love, sticking up for one's rights
Situation: 10 of Diamonds REVERSED - instability in a family caused by taking risks
Outcome: 2 of Hearts (Temperance) REVERSED - rushed for time
Yeah... I don't even know if I need to write out the narrative. Me feeling weak after this long, terrible week. Our family up until now officially breaking apart, with us younger ones forced to take a huge financial risk. And feeling wrung out and rushed with all the things we need to do... ah well. Could it ever be otherwise? To bed, to bed.