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Jack of Diamonds.
26 April 2021 12:00A young woman is looking at a diamond coin, held aloft in her left hand. With her right hand she is drawing it on a piece of paper. She has those pageboy bangs that are very popular among the young women of Portland in recent years. All around her bloom flowers - ornately designed, not based on real ones. She is focused and calm.
The pamphlet reads "Fascination" "Wonder" and "Scholarship".
Yes, I see her focus - how she is trying her best to understand the symbol in front of her. How she is trying to expand her mind, to see the unseen, to come to grips with what life has brought her.
OK, that might just be me... I've been fired today in the most unceremonious manner yet in my life. And I've had some doozies!
Mostly I am fine with it - relieved, even! SO glad to have a break from that wretched job. SO glad to have time to reorganize our lives properly. SO glad to not have to strive, strive, strive in a miserable void. SO glad that I can think clearly about what I want to do next. Mildly disappointed that we didn't get a chance to move out, but, SO glad that I have a free place to live. SO glad that it seems to be a layoff and not a firing, so unemployment should cushion us for a bit. Just... relieved in so, so, so, so many ways.
There will be a post later on about dealing with the emotional and spiritual side of the layoff. But right now, I'm looking at the lady and her scholarship and thinking: that's me. That's always been me. And still, in this world, there is so much to learn. And I'm so grateful I've been freed to learn even more of it. Hallelujah! And now... to take a long, long walk :)
The pamphlet reads "Fascination" "Wonder" and "Scholarship".
Yes, I see her focus - how she is trying her best to understand the symbol in front of her. How she is trying to expand her mind, to see the unseen, to come to grips with what life has brought her.
OK, that might just be me... I've been fired today in the most unceremonious manner yet in my life. And I've had some doozies!
Mostly I am fine with it - relieved, even! SO glad to have a break from that wretched job. SO glad to have time to reorganize our lives properly. SO glad to not have to strive, strive, strive in a miserable void. SO glad that I can think clearly about what I want to do next. Mildly disappointed that we didn't get a chance to move out, but, SO glad that I have a free place to live. SO glad that it seems to be a layoff and not a firing, so unemployment should cushion us for a bit. Just... relieved in so, so, so, so many ways.
There will be a post later on about dealing with the emotional and spiritual side of the layoff. But right now, I'm looking at the lady and her scholarship and thinking: that's me. That's always been me. And still, in this world, there is so much to learn. And I'm so grateful I've been freed to learn even more of it. Hallelujah! And now... to take a long, long walk :)