Daily div.
30 July 2021 23:02![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sh1njuk1 How quickly the world turns...
Me: Obviously, composing the email this morning was part of my best self. But... there's a power element to the Emperor, as well, and that was made quite clear when my mother-in-law wrote back almost immediately thanking me for explaining my thought process to her (!!), reinstating her offer to let us stay with them after the baby is born, and apologizing for being so emotional earlier. I guess... I won?
Well - if I won, I won the right to keep maintaining our relationship indefinitely. This is my preferred outcome, though; something I didn't dare to hope for, and a great relief to boot. You know, I don't actually hate my mother-in-law! Before this whole episode, I considered her (and her husband) my most reasonable, helpful and outright favorite extended family members. For a while now, I've been trying to cultivate as much forgiveness in advance as I possibly can for how members of my community are going to respond to 2021. So - I've got a bit ready to go! I wrote a brief message thanking her, telling her I felt heard, and that I would write more over the weekend, so that she didn't have to twist in the wind.
I'll meditate a bit on the best way to go forward over the weekend, too. I want to make sure boundaries remain firmly in place, and that reconciliation isn't taken as an opportunity to push further.
Situation: JEEZ LOUISE. Talk about your ups and downs!! This card was on the money.
Outcome: Our good friend Cory came over and we had many nice conversations. And tonight... I'm gonna sleep real well.
On that note, let's divinate!
Me: 6 of Spades - Leaving Worries Behind, A Transition - extra source says "a bridge over troubled waters".
Situation: 9 of Spades - staying awake at night with worry - extra source says this could either mean insomnia or my menses starting as well
Outcome: 2 of Spades (The Hanged Man) - Peace through Self-Discipline, Freedom from Distraction - extra source says a sign that you must accept a change, give something up, and follow your heart
Well here's a narrative... I should be moving on from the mother-in-law issue, my menstrual period might very well start tomorrow, and we will see whether we will have as romantic an evening as we were planning--or not!
Me: Obviously, composing the email this morning was part of my best self. But... there's a power element to the Emperor, as well, and that was made quite clear when my mother-in-law wrote back almost immediately thanking me for explaining my thought process to her (!!), reinstating her offer to let us stay with them after the baby is born, and apologizing for being so emotional earlier. I guess... I won?
Well - if I won, I won the right to keep maintaining our relationship indefinitely. This is my preferred outcome, though; something I didn't dare to hope for, and a great relief to boot. You know, I don't actually hate my mother-in-law! Before this whole episode, I considered her (and her husband) my most reasonable, helpful and outright favorite extended family members. For a while now, I've been trying to cultivate as much forgiveness in advance as I possibly can for how members of my community are going to respond to 2021. So - I've got a bit ready to go! I wrote a brief message thanking her, telling her I felt heard, and that I would write more over the weekend, so that she didn't have to twist in the wind.
I'll meditate a bit on the best way to go forward over the weekend, too. I want to make sure boundaries remain firmly in place, and that reconciliation isn't taken as an opportunity to push further.
Situation: JEEZ LOUISE. Talk about your ups and downs!! This card was on the money.
Outcome: Our good friend Cory came over and we had many nice conversations. And tonight... I'm gonna sleep real well.
On that note, let's divinate!
Me: 6 of Spades - Leaving Worries Behind, A Transition - extra source says "a bridge over troubled waters".
Situation: 9 of Spades - staying awake at night with worry - extra source says this could either mean insomnia or my menses starting as well
Outcome: 2 of Spades (The Hanged Man) - Peace through Self-Discipline, Freedom from Distraction - extra source says a sign that you must accept a change, give something up, and follow your heart
Well here's a narrative... I should be moving on from the mother-in-law issue, my menstrual period might very well start tomorrow, and we will see whether we will have as romantic an evening as we were planning--or not!